月下独酌

一个男人，一块草地，一瓶小酒，一枚月亮，一缕思念。

还是想起来了

晚上的时候看到了我们4组的集体照，伟大善良美丽矫情的4组集体照。很自然地想起了这里，就来了。看了几篇自己的文章，看了几篇她的文章，发现都快不认识刚来的小孩儿们了。 心里想的是为啥当时tutor们不多布置一点作业让我们写，因为现在看来是那么得好看，呵呵。 其实真希望能在这个地方遇见同学们，特别是那几个让我非常想念的，当然自己清楚那已经不可能了，除非我叫他们来。 预科啊，所有的东西都像点了“保存”键那样存在我小小大脑的某个缝隙里，之前自己还以为忘记了呢。 哪能这么容易忘记呢，就像我现在能一一数出我所有喜欢过的女孩子的名字一样，有7个吧应该，不对，再加一个... 这会儿千万不能一下子打开，打开大脑就要卡机了，我可还没有设置ALT+CTRL+DEL呢。静静地感觉了一会儿，觉得其实这里对于我就像个童话世界啊，哈哈，一个人随便漫游，即使我现在在这里破口大骂，你们也不知道对吧~ 那我就开骂了： 诶呀，算了，这不是君子所为。

现在最想说的是，我最最最最最最最喜欢的情景，就是我们大家一起睡觉的样子！ 咋能这么巧把嗜睡的都搞在一起了？“简直天理难容啊”，tutor们应该这么想，至少老看着我们摇头的那个有点点胖的小tutor曾这么想过的...~叫雅思敏是吧？^-^ 还有，我最最最最最最最最喜欢干的事，就是听路ge做oral report啊，哈哈，湖北英语响当当，听的我丫泪汪汪，简直只能用the burst of the weld来对之进行表彰，这个时刻，我忍不住忍俊不禁了，脑子昏昏的，也不知道这句语病句到底表达的是忍住了没？我反正是想说没忍住。还有，我最最最最最最最最喜欢感受的，呵呵，就是坐在那个地方，那是个一直变着的地方；其实每次都是想去坐的，每次都为那个位置做了估算，该在什么时间到坐在哪里就有可能坐在那个地方，成功没几次，跟我怯怯懦懦的性格很有关系吧，我也不怎么想改，毕竟我没有怯懦到畏强权，lol。

算啦，不说了，希望有人看见@*&……%￥#！）*（，会么，嘿嘿，基督山伯爵说：..........就在等待和希望中。 诶，苦苦的漫长的等待啊，悲催的渺茫的希望啊，你们好~ 下次不知道啥时来咯，加油，做自己和真实的自己~
2：51 10/10/21

一个人的博客

有些东西想找都没法找到的，就像这个地方，已经是我一个人的博客了，做个日记本也挺不错。

明天要复习java了，2点30睡觉。

仰天长笑！

Who else?

Ninety days passed, who else remember this place?
3 months passed, who else come for a review, or, for the lost memory?
A quarter of a year passed, who else wanna leave a message here: my loved groupmates, I'm missing you. Wish you all the best.

alexander

Alexander, the Great
The film is based on the Alexander the Great, the Macedonian King who conquered Asia Minor, Persia and some part of Ancient India. Shown in the movie are some of the key moments of Alexander's youth, his invasion of the mighty Persian Empire and his death. It also outlines his early life, including his difficult relationship with his father, Philip II of Macedonia, the unification of the Greek city-states under the League of Corinth and the conquest of the Persian Empire in 331 BC. It also details his plans to reform his empire and the attempts he made to reach the end of the world.
The plot also illustrates Alexander's private relationship with his childhood friend Hephaestion and later his wife Roxana. Before succumbing to an unknown illness or poison — it is never revealed which, yet both are suggested —, Alexander distances himself from his wife, despite her being pregnant, believing that she has killed his childhood friend Hephaestion.
After conquering Babylon, Alexander admits that Hephaestion is the only person whom he loves. During the film, Hephaestion shows extensive jealousy when he sees Alexander with Roxana and deep sadness when he marries her, going so far as to attempt to keep her away from him after Alexander murders Cleitus the Black in India.
Frankly, I do not think that this movie is a good one. I do not like the character inside. Alexander the Great was not supposed to be like that in history. At last, he turn out to be a bisexual and homosexual emperor. It is quite an awful thing.

Wandering ( Jeg blog10)

It is troublesome and tiring to create some structure-specialised articles. So this time I will just be myself and put down whatever my subconscious indicates. At the beginning of the bridging course, I made a commitment to fulfil myself by working hard on my courses and playing as an active participant as much as I can on every valuable activity. But now it turns out that I failed to meet my “demanding” promise. So many things came out and distracted my mind. Well, I am afraid to say my English is still that poor. Bridging course is a precious time. But it seems too late before I realised that I ought to pay more attention to it. Time flies! And now it is coming to the end. Our tutors are really very great I have to say from the bottom of my heart.  They are willing to help us and hope us would kick well in our future academic majors. And I should have talked with them more. You know my spoken-English is really terrible. Sometimes, I ask myself if I am fully prepared to cope with the university and then I am a little scared. Am I losing my confidence? There are so many acquaintances who do not know much about me. I got problems with them. Talking with them is just like cross-talking. It didn’t make any sense to argue with them gracefully. I should have thought about myself and turned to be more sensible and reasonable about the relationship. I have a good mood today and then I realise that it is a good start. 

Holiday visualization (lugg)

Whew, my stay in Singapore is eventually going to end. In just one and a half month’s time, I will be back in my hometown, Chengdu, again. How wonderful will that be? Regardless of what I have done here in Singapore, I will just get rid of those unhappy feelings, those obsessing problems or whatever, and just enjoy myself. Whenever I think of the coming holiday, I will get excited from the bottom of my heart. It always works, especially when I feel blue.
My flight will carry me back to Chengdu at 2:00 am on July the 17th. I will just pack a few things like some necessary clothes and go back home without heavy luggage. I will arrive at Chengdu Shuang Liu international airport at about 6:20 am. My parents and my twin brother will be there to pick me up. How happy and excited we all will be then! I will have not seen them for like a year and there will be so many interesting things to share. As soon as I come back home, I will not waste time for relaxing. Every minute and every second is precious for me. Maybe after a quick shower, I will go on a trip to travel around Chengdu. I will have left this city for so long and I would like very much to observe it and see the changes that came into being when I was not there.
Then, I would like to meet my relatives. I will have also expected me to come back for a long time. Then I will have a fine supper with my grandmother, my parents, my uncles, my aunts and my cousins. We will have an enjoyable talk while eating and we will laugh happily together. Then I would like to meet my old friends and classmates. Maybe they will all change a lot. We will play basketball together, we will have a meal of nice hot pot together and we will talk about the funny things happened in the past. Then maybe I will go on a trip to some wonderful places with fantastic scenery to get close to the nature. I will enjoy myself very much because I know the mountains and streams of my hometown will be certain to please me.
That is so far what I can imagine. I am sure it will be more wonderful than it sounds now. And I really can’t wait for it to come.

Some emotional feelings (Lugg)

To be frank, I have been a little moody and anxious recently. There seem so many things to worry about in my life. Time flies before I am aware of it. Just in a several days time, this bridging course is going to end. What have I learnt so far? Am I better than before I came to Singapore? What the hell am I doing NOW? It seems that I have just wasted several months time without any clear plans and goals? I am always fooling around with my friends and do nothing but playing games or even just do nothing. I spent uncountable nights and weekends playing those corruptive computer games. I sank into it and I could not get the hell out of it. Now I just cannot understand. Why have I been like that? What exactly made me believe I had the right to spoil myself like that?
Anyway, now I am awake, hopefully. I don’t know how I start to be aware of the sin of my dark past. Maybe I just suddenly woke up and found out there were actually much more important things to do in my life. I am feeling regretful and I cannot forgive that I have waste so much time and so many opportunities to do those important things in my life. And now, the horrible consequences of what I did in past befall me all in a sudden. Then, I feel my world is shattered and I am not able to cope. How I wish I could go back to the beginning of the bridging course? If so, I would lead a totally different life and I would absolutely not waste any opportunities to fight for what I now deem significant in my life. I would treasure every day of my life and put all my effort to get what now I long to possess. Anyway, it is just imagination. It is like the sweetest dreams which intoxicate you and when you wake up it is a dream and nothing more. Now, I have to confront the situation. I have already lost a lot, so now I am destined to suffer. I should not complain whatever will make me painful, `cause that will benefit me. I will definitely not waste my life anymore and I will try hard to make up what I have lost until there is no hope.
Ok, I think it is enough. Perhaps it is a little surprising for you to see me being so serious. If so, just do not mind as if I was joking.

my dream

I have a dream that I can retire with a sufficient money when I am in my forties. By that time I can do something I have dreamt for long. I may buy a small grocery in a small town. I am the boss and my wife is a grocery's wife. Of course, my kids are sons and daughters of a grocery.
Everyday, life is casual and easy. I can earn a little money to support my family. Money is not a problem, for I have earned enough for the rest of my life. The people there are friendly and familiar to my family. Sometimes I will invite my friends to come for a sit-down, or playing basketball. When meeting, my friends and I can recall the unforgettable times when we are careless young guys. We drink, laugh and sing songs which are fashionable in our young age. Then we talk about our friends' happiness and unhappiness and maybe laugh out or cry for them.
My children are no more sons and daughters of two scholars or executive staff, but of two learned citizens. They may not go to school if they do not need it. However, they must be educated. The most important thing they should learn is to be honest, sincere and loyal in life and modest, critical and creative in career. Of course I will teach them whatever I know if they need, but how to be a man comes first. They can make friends with anybody.
When I get the passion to travel, I will set off without hesitate. It can last for half a year. For example, I may rent an apartment in the suburb of Florence or Milan. During the 'work days', I may do some job, like teaching Chinese or math for some entertainment. When it is the 'play days', I will travel and feel the place I travel and feel it with patience. It is really a good way of traveling.
This is my dream. It can be a grovery in a small town, a farm in the countryside or a small bookstore in a big city, whatever like that.

my dream

nonsense

This is my ninth blog. The English course is coming to its end and Economy is coming. I feel something difficult to express. I really do not think that this set of lessons had improved my abilities. One of the most important thingsis that I have got a group of classmates and friends.
In these days, I have learnt a lot from them. They are talented and hardworking. Their attitude of academic achievement seems more positive. I always feel shameful when I am not concerned about my lessons. Illusion sometimes strike my mind. I should have a talk with somebody and express my impulsive and sincere thought. I feel more and more eager to struggle and strive. It is the very way for me to achieve my life goal, the final goal, the hard-to-reach goal-----retiring at my forties.
Today Orlando Magic beats Cleveland Cavaliers home with 103-90. I felt very happy when the game ended. It is a big victory for the Magic. It is its second time to play in the finals (the first time is 94-95, led by Shark). Though the referees stand on the Cavaliers, they lose. Comparing with them, the Magic played better and more efficient. Magic is also better in height and accuracy, so it is right for them to win. What is more, when playing semifinal in the east they met a Celtics without KG, otherwise they would never stepped foot on that court.
Today is the last day of may and I wish Iwould have a good June.

The first day of service learning (Lugg)

Today is Saturday. I used to sleep till 11 o’clock or so on Saturday. I treated this precious day a really perfect time to supplement my very scarce sleeping time since I found I had always been sleepy during the daytime. However, I have changed my opinion somehow. When I woke up at almost noon, I did not find the long time of sleeping made me energetic and conscious. On the other hand, I felt even sleepier and I even did not feel like start to do things. Anyway, I figured out that I should get up early at weekends and make use of the time more reasonably.
So, this service learning program just gave me a good reason to get up early. I had to get ready before the set-off time, 8:00. So, I got up at about 7:30. I had to say that I was a little bit sleepy tough. Anyway, it was a good start. I was not sure about what we were going to do this day. I only knew that we were going to take part in some activities. So I expected those activities to be interesting.
To my surprise, this whole day just somewhat sucked. We were not sent to visit some kids or some lonely old people, instead we were just sent to a park near the beach to do some meaningless activities. One of the activities was even irritating. In that activity, there was a steep slope there and a plastic carpet lying from the top to the bottom. Our group of ten must find a way to climb up the hill altogether as a team. This was nothing. But the difficulty was that someone would pour water mixed with soap and butter down then carpet so that the carpet would get very slippery. So, this game was intended to let us aware of teamwork. But, why did we have to get wet all over our bodies to show some teamwork? Could not we just do some other more friendly and peaceful activities? As for the following activities, they were also very dull and meaningless. I just thought it would be more meaningful if we went to help some lonely people.
Anyway, it was a good start for my new lifestyle.

Twelve places I want to visit ( M.L.)

One of my lasting hobbies is travelling. I firmly believe that travelling can change my way of thinking and stop me from being pride and ignorant. I have twelve places rooted in my mind which I want to set foot on one day, five in China and seven abroad. In this blog I will write about the twelve places I dream to go to in the future.

I want to visit the Tsinghai Lake someday. High on the Tsinghai-Tibet plateau, I will marvel at how close the indigo water is with the azure sky and how they joins as one on the horizon. I will also visit the birds’ island in the middle of the lake, which is the habitat of thousands of brown-hooded gulls. Then I will go along the newly-built Tsinghai-Tibet railway to Lhasa to visit the Potala Palace, where according to legend Princess Wencheng had lived in the Tang Dynasty. If I am lucky enough, I may catch sight of a yak, which Tibetans revere as symbol of strength and tenacity. When I am at the foot of the snow-capped mountains, I will not forget the hardships the road builders encountered, I will remember the song Road to Heaven, “At dawn I stood on the grassy meadow, I saw the holy eagle fly across the sky, like a piece of auspicious cloud with its feathers lit silver by the morning glow, promising the fortune of the Tibetans. At dusk I stood at the steep peak, I saw the railway had reached my hometown. Over mountains and valleys, the long dragon has brought warmth to the snowfield plateau, and the happiness and unity of all the ethnic groups…” (Forgive my rough translation).

The second place I want to visit is the Mogao Caves which is also known as the caves of the Thousand Buddhas. The caves contain some of the finest examples of Buddhist art spanning a period of 1,000 years. I want to appreciate the ancient sculptures and wall-paintings. Although I have seen for many times photos of these most famous Chinese Buddhist grottoes, it must be breath-taking to see and feel the real thing by myself.

The third place I want to go to is the Hulunbeier Grassland in the eastern part of Inner Mongolia. I want to go there neither because of wanting to experience the Mongolian way of like as shepherds and horse breeders living in yurts nor of wanting to see the mammoth skeleton exhibited in the Inner Mongolia Museum, instead I want to see a creature living on this vast land-the prairie wolf. I conceived this idea of seeing a wild prairie wolf after I read a novel “Wolf totemism”. It was about an intellectual’s story who was banished to Hulunbeier during the Cultural Revolution. The novel describes wolves as a kind of amazing animals which are clever, crafty and hierarchical. It also tells the continual fierce battles between the Mongolians and the wolves, which reflects the wildness in the nature of the Chinese people. In the mainstream climate where harmony is enhanced as a basic policy of development nowadays in China, I want to get a glimpse of the remaining wildness in the Mongolian-wolf relationship on the vast grassland of Hulunbeier.

The fourth place I want to travel to is the Terracotta Warriors in Xi’an. I want to see the magnificent army of Qin Shi Huang the first emperor of China. I have always been amazed in learning that the warriors and horses were lifelike and you cannot find two exactly the same. I want to see them with my own eyes.

The fifth place I want to visit is the Crescent Spring and the Ringing Hills. Not far from the Mogao Caves, this place of interest is also in Dunhuang, a once prosperous ancient city on the Silk Road. The Crescent Spring is of crescent shape, surrounded by hills of sand. It is especially precious that the water in the Crescent Spring is clear and refreshing despite the immense Gobi Dessert it is located in. The sand on the Ringing hills around the spring makes noises like bells ringing when winds blow. Another strange thing is that because of the unique landscape, the sand of the surface of the hills does not fall into the spring, instead it moves up towards the top of the hills in the wind. This is why the Crescent Spring has not been buried by sand. How this special landscape came into being has not been fully revealed yet, but personally I do not want to know the scientific reason behind it, maybe it is better just believing in the beautiful tale in which a Taoist and a Monk competed on magic powers and the Holy water from Sakyamuni turned into the Crescent Spring.

The place I want to visit most abroad is Stonehenge in Avebury, England. Many aspects of Stonehenge remain subject to debate, but I think the mystery is fascinating. A new theory suggests that Stonehenge was part of a ritual landscape and was joined to Durrington Walls by their corresponding avenues and the River Avon. Durrington Walls henge represented land of the living, while Stonehenge represented domain of the dead. If that is so, I want to walk along the Avon from the Durrington to the Stonehenge and imagine the scenes of celebrating ancestors and being alive thousands of years ago. I will visit it in midsummer, so that I can see the sunrise and appreciate the view where the memorial stone in the middle of the four concentric circles, the Heel Stone, and the newly-risen sun above the horizon are in a line.

I want to go to Vancouver one day. One of my seniors is on exchange in UBC now and I really like the pictures she took there. I want to go there because Vancouver is ethnically diverse and is one of the first places in North America set foot on by Chinese during the Canyon Gold Rush. The highlights of visiting Vancouver may be watching the 2010 Winter Olympics, taking a ride on the sky train, and simply stride along the bay and sneeze the breeze of the sea.

I want to see the Sakura at Tokyo Imperial Palace; I want to ride a caribou sled in the Quebec City, where French meets Canada; I want to see the Great Valley; I want to see the fjords and aurora borealis in Norway; I want to visit the Red Square in Moscow. I know I will set foot on these wonderlands someday.

Home (YSM)

These days I always see SM2 students pulling their heavy luggage go out of Eton Hall. It is time for them to go home now. Every day I see their happy faces when they talk about what to bring back home as gifts for relatives and friends, or when they will set off, when they will arrive home. I admire them very much. Home, now becomes a word so far away from me.

Before I came to Singapore, I thought I was strong enough to live alone without missing home. I thought I could do anything by myself. However, thinking is not equal to doing. Until I really live by myself, I finally recognize how hard life is, and how much efforts my parents have made to tend our home. I miss them, I miss my relatives, my friends, my hometown… The weather in Dalian is sometimes similar to that in Singapore, especially when it is sunny and with gentle breeze. At that time, I feel as if I were at home, but when I realize that it is only my daydream, I turn to be fairly sad. Yesterday, I happened to see the newspaper post on the broad in Eton Hall. It suggests some goods of typical Singaporean characteristic to take back to China as presents, like tassajo, tinware, sweeties, preserved fruit, makeup… I even have the illusion that I will go back home soon too. I remembered last time I went to the beach with my roommate, I saw the boundless sea under the sun which was around the corner to set, and was shrouded in a purple color. It made me recalled the days when my family rambled along the sea at weekends, and inspired the feeling of homesick.

Last week, when I chatted with mom, I heard that both mom and dad had some health problems. I got extremely worried about this. Luckily, this week they said they were much better. I felt a little relieved, but still can not set my mind at rest. I begin to think about what I can do for them. First, I will help mom do some housework, like washing the dishes, scrubbing the floor, washing clothes… Second, I want to study how to cook, and instead of waiting for them returning home after work and cook for me, I want to prepare dinner for them. I make a plan to get up early to make breakfast, then when they go to work, I will go to market to buy food, then cook dinner. The rest of the time, I can do some housework, as well enjoy myself doing something I like. Third, I want to encourage them to exercise more. As they are getting older, the condition of health becomes worse, they should do exercises in order to maintain health and keep the physical age young. All in all, I want them to see that after my living alone for months, I am now independent, mature, and can look after myself. So they don’t need to worry for me any more. I intend to let them know that I have grown up, and it is already time for me to take care of them, not on the contrary.

Though sometimes I regretted to make the decision to leave home and come to Singapore, I have to say that it is thanks to this experience that I really grow up as an adult, and understand more of life. If I never lose something, I will never know how much it means to me. That is life.

nothing but a blog(4)

The world now is not peaceful. Lots of current affairs happened in the past months. Conflicts, epidemic disease and economic crisis fill the content of newspaper.
North Korea, facing international censure for this week's nuclear test, threatened on Wednesday to attack the South. It is because the north regards the action that the south joined a U.S.-led plan to check vessels suspected of carrying equipment for weapons of mass destruction as a war declaration. The situation becomes worse and worse. Furthermore, the north declared that it is going to quit the truce agreement. It indicates that the Korean Peninsula is no longer peaceful and warfare can happen at any time. The UN condemns this action and prepares to take action to stop the war between two countries. But the north seems to be very firm and get ready to face any difficulties. As everyone knows, the north is developing nuclear equipment though we do not know what it is for. So it is normal that the south is so nervous. I hope they can get back to negotiation table at once to avoid a worse situation.
There is another thing. After the swine flu spreads almost every corner of the world, Singapore finally suffered. Singapore has confirmed three more cases of Swine Flu. This brings the number of infected persons here to four. The second case is a 43-year-old Singapore PR who returned to Singapore from San Francisco via Manila on Tuesday. The third case of Swine Flu is a 28-year-old American woman working in Singapore. She returned to Singapore from Honolulu via Tokyo. It is hard to say where she was infected. The fourth patient is a 28-year-old Singaporean man who returned to Singapore from Chicago via Hong Kong on 25 May. They all came back to Singapore from the infected areas. However, I think the government will deal with this issue well, making it in control. Wish the disease disappear more quickly.
What I mentioned above are some current affairs. Maybe they do not make any sense. But, I think it is beneficial to know what is happening in the world.

nothing but a blog(3)

The European championship league finally came to the end. The finale was held in the Roma Olympic stadium, attracting the whole world’s attention. It is between Manchester United and Barcelona. In fact, I like neither of these two teams. The teams I support are Liverpool FC and Real Madrid. Coincidentally, their respective implacable foes are Man U and Barcelona. I do not like these two teams and even hate them to some degree. However, the two teams which entered the finale are indeed two of the best teams in the world. Furthermore, they truly played fantastic games this season. So the finale is a decisive battle between two strong teams.
As a fanatic of soccer, I decided to watch the remarkable game though it started at 2:45. I expected it deserved it. The Man U creating many good chances in the first ten minutes. Cristiano Ronaldo was very active to make a goal. But the situation changed suddenly. Samuel Eto'o scored at Edwin van der Sar's near post in the 10th minute after escaping Nemanja Vidic. It became the turning point of this game. After that goal, the Man U started to be a little scatterbrained. Barcelona's peerless midfield pair of Andres Iniesta and Xavi ruled midfield with a display of passing perfection, making the ball stay in the half pitch of Man U. Man U did not come up with some good ideas to solve these problems, to restrain Barca’s attack. They were very passive and could not threaten the Barca’s goal. The finale became Barca’s time. In the 70th minute, Xavi was the creator with a cross that looked too high for Messi, but he expertly soared to send a header over Van der Sar. 2:0! There seemed to be no suspense to the final result. But Man U kept on threatening Barca’s goal. Valdes stopped a goal from Cristiano Ronaldo, and van de sar stopped one from puyol as well.
Finally, Barcelona won the championship league even though I am not so happy about that. Hope Liverpool and Real Madrid will play better in the next season. Either of them winning the cup is ok.

Blog (YAP)(18)

This is the last assignment of blog I shall finish, or in other words, this is the last advertisement I put here to show myself to my dear classmates.
Blogs are advertisements, at least for me, they are. However, there are no profound opinions, interesting stories or any other wonderful things in my blogs, instead, all are just about something I like to talk about and some small feelings I have in a certain period. I admit that they are not attractive, and they cannot teach people lessons. I just want the people who are interested in me know more about me. I write blogs for them, the one who concern about me and want to share lives with me. My blogs are just these kinds of simple advertisements.
The other assignment is to comment on other’s blogs. It is really a tough task for me. I am not the kind of person who has many things to say about others. When I read an interesting blog, all I want to do is laughing; when I exactly agree on what the blogs say, I don’t want to express my agreement by writing down the same ideas like a parrot; when I find blogs which are extremely good in language, I am afraid that my poor comments would just show the ignorance of myself, which in a Chinese saying is “playing the axe in front of the door of Lu Ban’s house.” In English, it means displaying one’s slight skill before an expert. I will feel shameful doing this.
One of my classmates once express her pity that when our bridging course comes to an end, there may be nobody will come to read our blogs again. They are abandoned here, like a lively garden become a graveyard. More or less, I had this kind of pity feeling every time I came to the cross roads of my life and decided to give up something. But in this situation, I think there is no need to feel pity. Every time we came up with something and write them down as our blogs, they became parts of our mind. Like the food we eat, we may not remember what we ate a week ago, but they have become part of our bodies. It is the same when we read other’s blogs, we have known the person’s hobby and characters after reading their blogs, there is no pity that we forget the blogs, at least we have kept the soles of them.

Living in the present(YAP)

“Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is mystery. Today is a gift. That’s why it’s called present.” Who put it so? I’m not sure, nor do I care, but I do like it. Why? Because I’ve tasted the real flavor of the saying through my own experience. Back to the first days I entered my senior high school, I was more sad and lost than excited. Seeing so many of my former classmates enrolled in famous high schools, I was much distressed and down-hearted. I kept thinking of the past days when at junior high school. How I regretted the time I wasted that I should have studied. But it was only too late. Life and future are not easy for a vocational graduate in the present society. I am delighted that now I have tided over the river. I know it is useless and futile to dwell on the past. The past is past, it is dead, and it is not healthy for us to linger over it. We should live in the present instead of past. Tomorrow is mystery. It is also useless and futile to worry about the future. As many of the things remains unpredictable or unable to control. And this kind of unpreventable future things can really ruin our lives if we worry too much about them. There is nothing we can do except living well in the present. To live in the present, we should learn to cherish the gift given by God. This very gift is to the time today. We must fully awake that our time at school is more precious than any other period of our life, because it is the golden period for us to acquire knowledge and develop ourselves. If we allow these morning hours of life to slip away, we shall never be able to make up for the loss. But if we use them properly, they will yield us innumerable advantages. In this increasingly fast changing world where competitions are everywhere, time definitely means opportunity and success. What we can or should do is to make every day count. We are alive, let us live. We have the ability to experience, let us experience. We have the ability to learn, let us learn. The meaning of life can be grasped in a moment. A moment so brief it often evades our perception. The great leader Chairman Mao once wrote, “So many deeds cry out to be done, and always urgently. The world rolls on, time presses. Ten thousand years are too long, seize the hour, and seize the day!” Let us remember the famous remarks and live in the present.

Outside The Window (YAP 20)

I am sitting in a chair at level 4 in a certain building. I am looking into a window. I see nothing in the window, so I just look outside the window. I see something.

I see a tree, a very tall tree, a very straight-built tree. It must be very old because there are lots of tree animals there. The tree animals are living a happy and steady life, just like the one they see though the window who is just staring at them. I see the time there stop to work, it stagnates.

I look through the tree. I see a cloud which is shinning clinquantly. Maybe it is the cloud dropped by the Monkey King. I see there is a spider floating in the cloud. He is suffering a lot, certainly. He goes up and down, down and up, his fate is not in his hands, though he has a lot of hands. Only the God knows whether he would be on the ground again. Time flies there, because every second, great changes can take place.

I look through the cloud. I see a mountainous area. Two groups of men are fighting fiercely. They are from different villages. The cause of fight is very simple. That’s why the fight seems so much like a fight between beasts. The only different from that is this fight does not have female soldiers; the female are weeping in their houses, concerning the safety of their husbands as well as the future of their children who is facing the danger of losing a father. Time flies.

It is the clock who takes our lives away. But now the trees and the place I stay do not have a clock. It is better for me to go and buy one. It is better to stop. Goodbye to you, my trusted friends.

The Great Death of Underground Love (YAP 20)

17, 18, 19, it is the spring time in human’s life. Spring is beautiful because of its various life-forms all starting to flourish; human’s spring is beautiful because all emotion-forms start to grow and the love between boys and girls is the most beautiful among all.

Few teenagers dare to express their love to the one they admire immediately, so they choose to love underground. This situation is just like the seeds lying deep in the earth in spring, they are looking forward the bright light, free air in the overground world. It is very comfortable to stay in the earth and preparing to grow. And the longer seeds stay in the earth, the stronger love they hold for the promised outside world. Of course, I am not a seed and I have not been in the earth, you may not believe me, it’s ok. I want to imagine more what I will do if I am in the earth of spring: I will do my best to prepare to be an excellent seed to adapt to the outside world; I will never cease to dream about the happiness that one day I come out of the earth; I will feel sad sometimes because it is so much pain waiting but I know throughout my lifetime it is the most beautiful pain I can feel; I will taste the never-ending process of the love’s becoming stronger and stronger, deeper and deeper, as well as the outside world’s impression on me becoming better and better and finally beyond description; also, I will sometimes show off my talents to the overgound to attract her attention because I believe it is such a good overgound world that I have countless components and I cannot be left behind and I swear to God I will sacrifice all; and I will be discouraged when I see the overgound world shows favor to other seeds but I am determined that the only thing I want is her happiness, no matter with me, or without me…

That is the great feeling of underground love. I still want to be the seed. When another seed told me it is time to come out, I lose my mind and come out, and I died, greatly.