A sudden change of my mood occured today when I chatted with my former former girfriend. She 's got a new boyfriend.
I had loved her for five and a half years before she agreed to be my girlfriedn last June. However, that relationship didn't last long. She told me she was too young to have a boyfriend and we said good bye to each other quietly. I pretended to be calmed.
Several months have passed, and I have got a new girfriend. I thought I have managed to survive and have got rid of that experience. However, today, when I was told she has already got a new boyfriend suddenly, especially by herself, I still felt heartbroken. A feeling of conflict, just like something blocked in my chest; made me hard to breathe.
Why this happen? I really love my present girlfriend, but how can this awful feeling comes over to me? Maybe it is because she was my first girlfriend, but to get more close to the root, my conclusion is : Human beings are greedy and selfish. I myself am a greedy person either.
I think I had better write something, or I will simply die due to this terrible feeling. However, I can't write this feeling in my Qzone, where most of my blogs locate because of a certain reason. Then, I think of this stage here in blogger, and there's no risk at all. So I come here and write this article.
Anyway, after writing this blog, I feel better. Maybe this is the reason why people need this stage to express their feelings, emotions and experiences.
She's got a new boyfriend. She was my former former girlfriend~~~
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I am sorry to hear that news. but I wondered the girl you mentioned in the passage was your first girlfriend?
ReplyDeletedon't be so sad ,everything would pass quickly let alone you have had a beautiful girl who loves you so much. take the chance you get now. it's very hard to get married to your first love in such a modern society. you'll face the truth sooner or later.and you have been happier than me. I haven't got one yet.so live a happy life and love the current girlfriend.best wishes to you!
Hi Alexius Love makes the world go round. Yes, people fall in love and fall out of love many many many many times in their life. This is natural. Because we often ;fall in love' but in reality it is infatuation - we like someone for a special reason e.g. looks, smile, personality. But when we get to know each other better, we may find that we are not in love, but in admiration. Sometimes we discover, that we do not like that person any more. Don't break you heart or other people's. Enjoy relationships with others. Enjoy life and studies.
ReplyDeleteI don't know much about love and I always think we are too young to talk about love but it doesn't matter much, since everyone senses differently and lead a different life. I feel it a pity for your expereience, but just like what you say" this is life." Perhaps all of us will come across that kind of feeling soon or later, but that's you who suffer from it now. But past has already passed.Treasure your present girlfriend and wish you will be happy all the time.
ReplyDeleteFirstly,I am sorry about that.Secondly,I wonder how many girlfriends you have.I don't have a girlfriend before,so maybe I don't understand your feelings totally.But I think your frist girlfriend got a new boyfriend can help you get rid of the guilty feelings, which you owed her.However,as Eva said,Treasure your present girlfriend and wish you will be happy all the time.I think this is the most important point.
ReplyDeleteYou've already got 4 comments, well, I'm the fifth one.
ReplyDeleteI don't want to say you should cheer up or something like that, because you know you should and you have to. However, when I saw your conclude is "Human beings are greedy and selfish", I didn't agree and I still can't agree now. You feel horrible when hearing she's got a new BF because you loved her, which I believe has something to do with an old perspective that" Roses witheres on the vine, but it doesn't mean their blooming was a lie". So your feelings are common and reasonable, yet out of greed or selfishness.
And time truly is a great healer, so I'm sure everything is gonna be okay. ^_^
Don't be sad. Love should bring you happiness. Since that has been the past, so why not cherish the present! I can feel how much you love your pesent girlfriend, because everytime you mention her, a gentle smile comes across your face. I hope that you can stop being sad and enjoy life, just hide it in mind as an unforgetable experience. Best wishes to you!
ReplyDeleteIt seems that our classmates are quite interested in your romance. So am I. I want to say that the first love is very important for everyone. So it's not surprised to find that you still care about your exgirlfriend. Since you have already had 3 grilfriends, I think you have more experience and you know how to deal with different issues. But I want to say value your present girlfriend or you will regret it later.
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