What I can prevail over is nothing (Lugg. 7)

It turned out that what I could prevail over is merely nothing! In the past, I had been not able to determine my destiny; At present, I failed to conquer myself; In times to come, I would not be capable of dominating my memories.
Once the fertilization is over, we are granted certain fate that will go through our life with us. Some components of it can be changed while it is not true to others. I would never have the chance to ask God or something to give me the choice of my life, appearance included. I was not qualified to determine my property. It seemed that I was taking control of my way, however, as a matter of fact, there was no such saying of my way. I was dragging on Fate’s way. I might think I was not into physics, but what else could I do except accepting my destiny?
A lines puts it that today is a gift. What’s the gift? Perhaps it is the combination of a negotiator, a hostage and a hijacker in one person. The “negotiator I” is often persuading the “hijacker I” out of his deed and luring him to release the “hostage I”, who wishes that he were not involved. The “hijacker I”, on the other hand, is struggling to find an approach that will do him a favor. When it comes to the problem of choosing major, the hijacker will take away the hostage, compelling him to make the decision that will benefit the hijacker. Simultaneously, the negotiator is ready to reason the hijacker out of the hijack for many objective obstacles. However, the hostage has no interests in their negotiation and only wants to get out of there. I can do nothing to help at that moment.
After many years, when I were to gain lots of experience, I would, again, be defeated by my memories. I may stop regretting for my failing past only when whiskey calms my throat down. I may drink my hurt away a bit at a time under the lullaby.
What I could prevail over is in fact nothing, is none of the past destiny , myself now or the memories in the future!